Back to some things I've gained in the last couple years...
I'm not sure why...But, one of the areas that has definitely changed is the depth of conversations I have & the depth of questions I now ask or answer.
I'm not sure how to explain this...
But, what I'm specifically speaking of is, not being afraid to ask or answer the questions really needing asked or answered.
Kind of a No Bull allowed thing...
An example...
You know how it feels when you are talking to someone having a really bad moment in life. You know...they know...you both know you know. Yet, you don't go there...you don't talk about it...you don't ask...they don't bring it up...that awkward feel - knowing you're avoiding something - but you just avoid it...and you talk about stuff that really doesn't matter. Do you know what I'm trying to describe?
Anyway - I think we have all been there.
Well.
That's the stuff I am no longer avoiding. The questions or conversations needing to be dealt with. I go there. Or, I allow others to go there.
It seems very real. Very honest. It feels like a breath of fresh air when it happens.
It's like you & they both feel relieved...free...connected...
The irony to it is - by going there, you feel more connected to that person...more in touch with where they really are in life...their story...their struggle...Or yours for that matter.
You feel more alive...more human...more caring...more _________ (something significant goes here).
Why is it a GAIN? because, I used to not go there. I'd leave that moment - feeling like something was missing. Feeling like there was a void in what had just happened.
Not anymore.
NOW
Without having to force anything...it just happens. Naturally so.
Maybe before - part of it was I either didn't care to hear it...was in too much of a hurry...was somewhere else in my thoughts...or something.
Also, I'd make it hard for people to ask the real questions or answer as superficially as possible at times.
You know what I'm talking about. Knowing you either didn't ask (for whatever reason) or didn't answer (for whatever reason) the things really needing talked about.
NOW
I've learned to live in the moment. To be there - all there.
I don't have this down completely - but when it happens...it's way cool.
Still growing...
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